Sunday, February 28, 2010
stereo mindset
current status: drinking koolaid and loving autolux
getting ansy about the move! im not sure what to do about my carrr gosh dangit! its hard selling the one thing that i have.. and love however.. i can't drive for a long ass time.. and im not even sure if im interested in doing it anymore! not for a while anyways.. just live in the city and dont drive at all is kindof the direction im going in
im just imagining what my room will be like.
i can't wait to have a fluffy bed/reading area
i'de like to have a loveseat like me mums had in her room last time.. i liked that whole set up
little tv and dvd so i can watch le movies..
laptop whereever
loveseat with geetar next to it
fluffy bed like i was mentioning lots of pillowz
painting of the birth of venus over my bed with a cute nightstand and crystal lamp accompanying it
fluffy rug between the couch and bed
large lovely mirror with a tall dressing table underneath
photos all over the walls tastefully
poster of some kind..
plants on tables
bookshelf
prettay curtainzz
prettay prettay prettay please
getting ansy about the move! im not sure what to do about my carrr gosh dangit! its hard selling the one thing that i have.. and love however.. i can't drive for a long ass time.. and im not even sure if im interested in doing it anymore! not for a while anyways.. just live in the city and dont drive at all is kindof the direction im going in
im just imagining what my room will be like.
i can't wait to have a fluffy bed/reading area
i'de like to have a loveseat like me mums had in her room last time.. i liked that whole set up
little tv and dvd so i can watch le movies..
laptop whereever
loveseat with geetar next to it
fluffy bed like i was mentioning lots of pillowz
painting of the birth of venus over my bed with a cute nightstand and crystal lamp accompanying it
fluffy rug between the couch and bed
large lovely mirror with a tall dressing table underneath
photos all over the walls tastefully
poster of some kind..
plants on tables
bookshelf
prettay curtainzz
prettay prettay prettay please
Saturday, February 27, 2010
"desperation"
February 19th 2010
this is the day i watched vicky christina barcelona layed outside in the sun on my blanket, read my current fiction the life room, drank coffee and played guitar- before i was feeling rather odd--
the neighbors gave me stogies- thanks debbie
a very very unbirthday
the cleaning of the house is not happening.. unfortunately as of yet im just scraping the remains of what i like to call the one hit wonder mmm.. which is helping my stomach so im keeping my fingers crossed today about any extra goodies and making some costco style spinach and parmesan mozzarella raviolis (thank you shelbay) mmm.. oh i think my water is boiling.. not to self: careful not to burst them this time please.. no bueno* that way
*bluenose
*burden
*bunsen
*busmen
^replace with
i should've gotten that garlic clove salt and pepper shaker set at the little thrift store when i had the chance! and those amazing pendleton shirts gosh dangit.. well maybe i'll see them again?
what's going on with my nood(le)z
*bluenose
*burden
*bunsen
*busmen
^replace with
i should've gotten that garlic clove salt and pepper shaker set at the little thrift store when i had the chance! and those amazing pendleton shirts gosh dangit.. well maybe i'll see them again?
da scrubbing
time to clean the house clean clean clean
laundry
kitchen
bathrooms
vacuuming
i need to post blogs about tyler and i's trips to the parks..theres just sooo many photos to choose from!
ill do it soon.. need to post them all on photobucket too so i can save em juuust in case i can't take this computer with me to milwaukee.. i want to print a bunch of these photos because i love them so much
soon this will happen.. i want my new room to be filled with memories of this lovely time <3
laundry
kitchen
bathrooms
vacuuming
i need to post blogs about tyler and i's trips to the parks..theres just sooo many photos to choose from!
ill do it soon.. need to post them all on photobucket too so i can save em juuust in case i can't take this computer with me to milwaukee.. i want to print a bunch of these photos because i love them so much
soon this will happen.. i want my new room to be filled with memories of this lovely time <3
id'e like to say thank you
for my doggie <3
for my stomach feeling better (stupid cramps) thanks to a friend bringing party favors
for the lovely day were having
for my mom and grandpa <3
for my love/best friend <333
for the options that are in front of me right now. choices are such a blessing
for my sarahbear what an amazing friend and person, without her all this wouldn't be possible <3
for all the free books/music/and movies at the library
for large amounts of food items now in my belly
for this lovely beach home where i have had great and very intense learning experiences
for this time i got to spend with my favorite person in the world
for all the love we shared that will continue in my heart forever
for my stomach feeling better (stupid cramps) thanks to a friend bringing party favors
for the lovely day were having
for my mom and grandpa <3
for my love/best friend <333
for the options that are in front of me right now. choices are such a blessing
for my sarahbear what an amazing friend and person, without her all this wouldn't be possible <3
for all the free books/music/and movies at the library
for large amounts of food items now in my belly
for this lovely beach home where i have had great and very intense learning experiences
for this time i got to spend with my favorite person in the world
for all the love we shared that will continue in my heart forever
Oh and by the way le bear remembered casey.. Im glad it takes few minutes to gain barrys trust from someone he does not know.. then after that they're homefree
Bear will like my roommates in no time and once hes used to things it'll be great
I feel safe with my littl bearenstein protecting me :) he loves his mommi heh
Bear will like my roommates in no time and once hes used to things it'll be great
I feel safe with my littl bearenstein protecting me :) he loves his mommi heh
Friday, February 26, 2010
The grass is always greener
Through the frames of yellow shades
Hes so dreamy.. omgsh i just keep glancing over at him and smiling caaaause i can't help it.. i love his sense of humor and when he laughs he is soooo ridiculously cute i can't help but feel super warm inside..just being around him..gosssh im going to miss my manboo.. <3 i can't believe my birthday is 4 days and a wakeup away.. wow here we go with the birthday of giving and taking away all at the same time
it'll be a good goodbuy.. more of a see you later kind of goodbuy.. nothings forever.. no distance is permanent. i trust things to happen as they should with of course help from me by means of peace and love through the journey.. can't hurt when you have those two on your side ;)
Barry's just standing there.. Le protector
Through the frames of yellow shades
Hes so dreamy.. omgsh i just keep glancing over at him and smiling caaaause i can't help it.. i love his sense of humor and when he laughs he is soooo ridiculously cute i can't help but feel super warm inside..just being around him..gosssh im going to miss my manboo.. <3 i can't believe my birthday is 4 days and a wakeup away.. wow here we go with the birthday of giving and taking away all at the same time
it'll be a good goodbuy.. more of a see you later kind of goodbuy.. nothings forever.. no distance is permanent. i trust things to happen as they should with of course help from me by means of peace and love through the journey.. can't hurt when you have those two on your side ;)
Barry's just standing there.. Le protector
Interesting how things go
silly things..
"im sure of it"
Barry is so cute..hah
Trying to get my groove back=not going to find it?
Yesterday in search of barry's toy (which now he's whining at me to throw for him) for what seemed like an hour i realized things are only where your not looking.. i gave up the search and went to put on my shoes. there was his penguin. the only time i will find what im looking for is if i stop looking all together.
So many lessons learned in one multi-dimensional night
silly things..
"im sure of it"
rock paper scissors
Trying to get my groove back=not going to find it?
Yesterday in search of barry's toy (which now he's whining at me to throw for him) for what seemed like an hour i realized things are only where your not looking.. i gave up the search and went to put on my shoes. there was his penguin. the only time i will find what im looking for is if i stop looking all together.
So many lessons learned in one multi-dimensional night
Current status
Having popcorn with my love
Watching kids in the hall lol..
Noon
Our curious visitor from last night left an herbal goodie for us.. :) so today has been very bright
Not mentioning the whole other world i was in last night thanks to the stuff! The crystals* on it are so amazing i had dreams about them last night..They looked like dewdrops <3
Barry is so silly... i trust him
mmmmmbuy
*see crystal castles
Having popcorn with my love
Watching kids in the hall lol..
Noon
Our curious visitor from last night left an herbal goodie for us.. :) so today has been very bright
Not mentioning the whole other world i was in last night thanks to the stuff! The crystals* on it are so amazing i had dreams about them last night..They looked like dewdrops <3
Barry is so silly... i trust him
mmmmmbuy
*see crystal castles
"I dream-pt this moment i swear
I want you to know that"
The bear and I are sad.. we miss Ty already! so much <3
What and interesting encounter this was...Brought things into perspective by means of rattling our comfortable world a little bit..we are meant to be.. I know its true hurdles battle there way into your path all the time...you can't just stop in front of each one.. you must run your damnedest and leap right over the thing!!
There is no running from.. only running to
we make this life...
A very good encounter/evening i will say
Refreshing..random..brought us a little closer together
New place.. Old friends.. Old city.. New friends
Make new friends keep the old
Love is the way through this journey
Life is broken down into sections of your life smaller and smaller until you end up at this very moment in time.. When i was 21.. Ill be saying someday
now.. its a short 5 days and a wake-up away.. Almost here..this birthday will be like no other birthday i've had before. This one is bringing both an end and a beginning at its exact date.
This is the day the time with my love will end
and the time to start fresh in a new city all alone in the world is beginning
I wonder what this change will bring.. what an adventure i say
-"Catch ya on the flip side"
I want you to know that"
The bear and I are sad.. we miss Ty already! so much <3
What and interesting encounter this was...Brought things into perspective by means of rattling our comfortable world a little bit..we are meant to be.. I know its true hurdles battle there way into your path all the time...you can't just stop in front of each one.. you must run your damnedest and leap right over the thing!!
There is no running from.. only running to
we make this life...
A very good encounter/evening i will say
Refreshing..random..brought us a little closer together
New place.. Old friends.. Old city.. New friends
Make new friends keep the old
Love is the way through this journey
Life is broken down into sections of your life smaller and smaller until you end up at this very moment in time.. When i was 21.. Ill be saying someday
now.. its a short 5 days and a wake-up away.. Almost here..this birthday will be like no other birthday i've had before. This one is bringing both an end and a beginning at its exact date.
This is the day the time with my love will end
and the time to start fresh in a new city all alone in the world is beginning
I wonder what this change will bring.. what an adventure i say
-"Catch ya on the flip side"
Thursday, February 25, 2010
skye dyving~ (oldies but goodies)
Current mood: a lil chillay
burnin sum 'erb, gettin cozy in my favorite sweater, visit le biblioteche, check out the latest in audio visual stimulation~ driving home my mind tends to wonder.. and hear we begin
pulling littlelotta' from the road we head straight into the clouds
we sail through the sky hitting speeds unmeasurable by a 120mph speedometer, until, as usual my gas light turns on, being i have no job this is the end of the road, roooads roood.
30 miles to empty and i see a clearing in the white endless heavens i found myself flying through. lets go lotta! and with a relatively sharp turn to the right we just make through the gap of blue
we are now at 40,000 ft, and counting 30, 10
i wasn't sure the landing site, i tend to procrastinate sometimes, but i roll down my window and take a gander.
SCHSHSHPPPFFFFFFfff!!~~~~
into the ocean
it is there in the waves and le bubbles i see what i've been looking for all my life: the love between you and me~
located everywhere and in all things (and luckily floatie) starts to carry me up uup uupppppp oh i can see the sun again and land! forward lotta!
we kick it in overdrive and barrel up on the sand, receiving a funny look from a relatively homely gentleman, i later learn his name to be richie, and he spends his time bumbling/fumbling around the beach in search of "the perfect seashell"
my windows still down, we look at eachother and laugh a little, im soaking wet, sea weed all in my hair and a starfish stuck to the windshield
richie mumbles out the first words "whaaa whooo ehh.. how?"
me and lotta "hold the phone sir, may i ask you something first?"
richie "ehhh.. mm sure? i suppose? what?"
me "where are we located right now?"
richie "you've landed yourself right on the shores of florida missay!"
me "Brilliant!!"
pulling littlelotta' from the road we head straight into the clouds
we sail through the sky hitting speeds unmeasurable by a 120mph speedometer, until, as usual my gas light turns on, being i have no job this is the end of the road, roooads roood.
30 miles to empty and i see a clearing in the white endless heavens i found myself flying through. lets go lotta! and with a relatively sharp turn to the right we just make through the gap of blue
we are now at 40,000 ft, and counting 30, 10
i wasn't sure the landing site, i tend to procrastinate sometimes, but i roll down my window and take a gander.
SCHSHSHPPPFFFFFFfff!!~~~~
into the ocean
it is there in the waves and le bubbles i see what i've been looking for all my life: the love between you and me~
located everywhere and in all things (and luckily floatie) starts to carry me up uup uupppppp oh i can see the sun again and land! forward lotta!
we kick it in overdrive and barrel up on the sand, receiving a funny look from a relatively homely gentleman, i later learn his name to be richie, and he spends his time bumbling/fumbling around the beach in search of "the perfect seashell"
my windows still down, we look at eachother and laugh a little, im soaking wet, sea weed all in my hair and a starfish stuck to the windshield
richie mumbles out the first words "whaaa whooo ehh.. how?"
me and lotta "hold the phone sir, may i ask you something first?"
richie "ehhh.. mm sure? i suppose? what?"
me "where are we located right now?"
richie "you've landed yourself right on the shores of florida missay!"
me "Brilliant!!"
November 28, 2008
written when my heart was in a completely blissful hopeful love state
that was then..
that was then..
for love (oldies but goodies)
Current mood: like a dam fool
this ones for love
you dont see it every day, because its gone
lost in the grey
local area connection
its beautifucking nothing
forgot it
just start getting ready
start getting ready
to fill your time
this time~
January 16th 2009
this ones for love
you dont see it every day, because its gone
lost in the grey
local area connection
its beautifucking nothing
forgot it
just start getting ready
start getting ready
to fill your time
this time~
January 16th 2009
rolling shattered rock (oldies but goodies)
Current mood: rather solomn
sunbeams filter through this body
my body
cutting straight like crystal
you feel what you see in this place of depth
here, now
small creatures, shroud in their movements
are they really there?
something in my eyes
all i see is bits
iridescent shards of lights
energy broken down to half an atom
searching for its other
always searching
never finding
knowing
always knowing
and being
the purest truth in life.
so small
breathe it in drink it in, swallow
feel it down the throat
travels deep
miles, and miles
forever moving through this body
your body
never ending positives
searching, searching
always
never finding
its match
this journey
right here
right now
always searching
never finding
the end
January 21st 2009
I remember writing this while i was listening to autolux and eating delicious chicken at Rumbi's grill in Scottsdale.. mmm
sunbeams filter through this body
my body
cutting straight like crystal
you feel what you see in this place of depth
here, now
small creatures, shroud in their movements
are they really there?
something in my eyes
all i see is bits
iridescent shards of lights
energy broken down to half an atom
searching for its other
always searching
never finding
knowing
always knowing
and being
the purest truth in life.
so small
breathe it in drink it in, swallow
feel it down the throat
travels deep
miles, and miles
forever moving through this body
your body
never ending positives
searching, searching
always
never finding
its match
this journey
right here
right now
always searching
never finding
the end
January 21st 2009
I remember writing this while i was listening to autolux and eating delicious chicken at Rumbi's grill in Scottsdale.. mmm
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