yay! this is going to be so much better than freakin facebook.

idk why i had to go amd mess it up by saying no location.. oh well old school one didnt hav it.. crazy reading old posts about tyler.. i knew we would be together again someday. we both did.. just cray how things happen like that

All aboard
how classic, especially withe the train whistle right after
idk why i dont write in my blog more often its super easy... Probly the easiest thing ever.. I wanted to keep a travel journal but duh.. This is basically it riiight here hah

So im on my way to portland :)
i wanted to blog about something importlant but i cant remember what it is now
hmmmm
i need to write my resume!! I could definatly just blog it
bloooooogit
not now.. 5 more mi utes please
seat number 33

So this will now bemy 3rd time in portland
i tend to just spend a few days there at a time
ughh theres this littl baby behind me making really sik noises witb his mouth but i dont feel like moving.. Hahah its just distracting like eghh making me want to puke how sad
lets see maybe ill move?

Whynot

Omgsh how amazing I can post here in my blog fromy iPhone
as far as updates go
job is going great
feelin more comfortable with life in general I lov my phone lol

That icky feeling

today/tomarrow

shower power vacuum clean kitchen iron vacuum car and clean ittt-manicure in the middle-
grocery store mmmm remove ash tray items early am
work attt 4

five on friday
11am on saturday
11 on sunday or earlier idk..

second cup

not as good
well i need to get some creamer at the grocery store
first i need to take a shower.. do my nails study my materials a little bit then off to work
i wanted to tell my mom something but i can't remember what it is
oh well im sure i will if its important.. ya right lol
ugh i look awful i know thats terrible to say but i just do
harsh reality

ive had so many points today already.. however i am going to make a papaya strawberry vanilla smoothie with wheat grass juice
i feel so cool.. with the wheat grass mm
barry loves it
note to self
do not buy foods that are unhealthy and bleh.. aka oreos.

how exciting
i need to eat slow food
well really just the opposite of fast food
hmm.. really lol

well forget that smoothie idea.. i guess i should just try it by itself and not put in on my face.. in case of it turning green

barry's ready for bed :) he is so cute
my goodness
ill have to send the new picture i took of him vi tele
so my grandpa is so funny omgoodnesss
ive been playing guitar like crazy! im so happy about it
fun timess bebe
i wanna play some more however my hands hurt.. boo

april tenth. ill remember you well. what epic disaster
april ninth however was nice.. what happened..
time to really reflect and pray
and know what is really really important and real.
i love my Grandpaaa <3

sooo i love schmokin and writing in this blog
i love the new hand soap i got
i need to floss my teeths daily
my hairs getting longer againnn i love that too
i wonder how long itll be after summer.. and what itll look like..
i wanna do waves like... lemme see

perfect. thats exactly what i want my locks to be
omg.. she is so prettay i love her <3

barry just dropped his towye on my lap lol
to reup or not.. that is the question.
you'de think i could wait its just..idk its what keeps me sane.. sortof at least what i can claim to be sanity
lol we will see where the wind takes me!
by the way my class is tomarrow so ill go to work after and figure out my schedule..well hopefully or thursday im not sure
the class will probly take me one second
last time maybe 10 minutes.. just went over the book and took a short multiple choice quiz
thats nice of my boy today.. im glad it worked out
omgggg crazyyynesss
oh mannn v for vendetta came out in 05.. meening fiiiiive years later it took for her locks to grow out.. well i guess 4 and that was from totally bald.. so ide say itll take me.. 3
sigh....

yea we all shine on
the moon the stars and the sun
we all shine on
mhmm

ive sang that so many times and played it.. every time it brings an intense spirit in meh,. idk why but i like it LOV it
well honestly goodnit im ssoooooo tired i havn't slept a wink
the obsession well lets not say that
inspiration continues..
<3

omg im fuckin fat
i look like total shit
complexion is shit
hair is shit
body is shit
omg
waht terrible things to say! i wish they wern't true
god i look like a fukin sciorpion woman
total goon

and its cooooold outside
babee its cooooooooooold outside
i wish i had someone to snug with me please my fat legs will keep you warm <3
hahaha how appealing right boyz?
freggin sik.. this is dam pathetic

okay
AFTER SUMMER which is like 4 months

i expect myself to be in
amazing shape 125 lbs excercize and stretch be total health nut
soft healthy complexion cause of healthy foods
long hair thats soft and natural HAIR PEACE an take care of it
pretty nails and clothes and stuff shoes an the like cosmeticsss
really white teeths
amazing guitar player :) heh
alright nah how perfect ya know
why the fuk can't i step up my lazy ass game and do this sheit!?
lets do it ohhh yea

okay so my wrist hurts ive been playing guitar so much since grandpa adjusted the neck so it no longer make a buzzing noise! hurray! absolutly fabulous
he mentioned a trade in on a gibson.. omg.
what do i do?

play some morrrre eat some food?

..sigh

I was never going to fall
But the smile, the face has sealed my fate
She's weird, an addict of it all
Lets wait for another taste
I have nothing left to give

The world, has turned, black and cold
And I, can't catch my breathe
You rehearsed your lines
With rhythmic details
They match, the pounding in my chest

The summer came and you left me with your words
The clever sounds from your mouth
They can make me feel so worthless
And you say, that I am not enough
And through my heart is breaking open
Know that I will not be broken
BY you

The person you claimed to be, is not who haunts me now
The cherished lines behind those brown eyes
That you swore were true more times than I can count

The summer came and you left me with your words
The clever sounds from your mouth
They can make me feel so worthless
And you say, that I am not enough
And through my heart is breaking open
Know that I will not be broken

I know these words are weak and young
But broken as I come undone
And while I drown in these mistakes
You ego swells but I can tell
You know that you're a fake.

You cried and cried I'm your friend
Just to save some face
You didn't want it to end
In just a week I'm replaced
You wanted me so listen to me
But can you hear me now
Your just a sickness and a cancer
The cancer's your filthy mouth.

YouTube - Neutral Milk Hotel-Two headed boy

YouTube - Neutral Milk Hotel-Two headed boy
so ive been practicing this song..
remember b is open 244 open..
:)

Fun times new people cold hands! Hah
Well all of these idk
Im happy i hav a job.. Yay :)
Meeting next wednesdayy for my f h cardd
Ill remeber
I need to take cre of my complexion! Egh whats the deaaalll
Love this crew

craazy i didn't make a post 50 times yesterday.. not even one hah
i just did mah nailss a little anyways nothing fancyy
potato pepe is perfect i like it
listening to wilco sky bleu sky which is very pleasing to my earsies
i totally overdid it on the easter candies.. and soda..
i was close to having the perfect diet today
oh well..
"im gonna need you to be patient with me"
my nails look pretty dang gooood
my legs are shavedd
showered with makeup wow what a productive day!
i even did some yogaa just a little
i need to really get on the excercize thing... i think i will because summer will come up and ill want to be outside all the time. i want to take barry to the river; as much as possible allll summer he would absolutly love it and so would i he is so much fun to take swimming :)
i want to start swimming and running and doing cardio classes and whatnot that would be superrr fun
man i took advantage of a lot at my last apartment.. i wish i was still there.. going to la fitness and yoga classes having my own place.. couldve gotten a tv with my tax return.. oh well what am i gonna do now.
thats what happens when shit comes crashing down i guess.. change
not a bad thing

what am i gonna do?
im breathing.. i guess thats a succesful day
i have to go pee againnn
then what?
idkk

oj (not simpson) smoothie

oh cramps leave me aloneee pweaaase pwase.
today i went to the grocer and purchased some fruits and veggies..
im a few cups short on those daily values in lifea
im going to idk.. im not really that hungry.. i might have a muffin.. tehe
orrr some blackberries sound really good
maybe some olives
idk
my stomach is actinggg up
maybe ill watcha movie with grandpa
i just smokedd and played guitar oh how amazing that is
loveee it so much and totally appreciate that little joy in life
ill feel better soon i hooope
bleh glad i saved that lil bit  :)

breakfast smooooothie! yum thats totally what i want right now!
yumz yumz
i think ill use orange juice raspberries and OMG i didn't know rasberrys was spelled with a P IN THE MIDDLE im freggin amazed
and anywhays rasPberries and vanilla yogert..
i guess thats all idk? a lil lemon squeezee and ice of course-- we'll seee

"This isnt how i wanted to remember me an you"

I love bics from franceee <3

Hangers for closet