Monday, March 8, 2010
Oh my god it feels like my entire chest is caving in. it hurts so badly :( he wont answer me. Called me at 1 in the morning after some drinks...for the first time.. Doesnt say anything as i say hello hello?.. Jus talks in the background. Hangs up on me.. Doesnt want to deal with me.. Doesnt care. Doesnt like me.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
the end
The smell of freshly cut grass is a comfort through this complicated time.. Brings me out of my mind and into reality. Harsh reality.. He is gone.
later this day-
I met the neighbor that lives right across the street..and had a quite contradicting experience to the one i had earlier today. it was nice
the first things that were on my mind were a schmoke an a pancake and well! interesting how things go
he knows people that work at a couple restaurants around here? maybes all a-float.. :/
later this day-
I met the neighbor that lives right across the street..and had a quite contradicting experience to the one i had earlier today. it was nice
the first things that were on my mind were a schmoke an a pancake and well! interesting how things go
he knows people that work at a couple restaurants around here? maybes all a-float.. :/
Saturday, March 6, 2010
To grandfathers house we go-
Were almost home to the tri-cities..listening to hot rod circuit.. Trying not to cry because my dream is over and i am so sad. I don't know what to plan or think at all. Let alone my emotions are fuking haywire. I fuking love him so much i just want to be together.. When we first met i felt like i could finally let that tense breath of air out.. That everything would be okay as long as i could feel his energy blending with mine. so warm together so happy and free.. Almost too perfect if that makes sense? I think when that happens.. too much of a good thing.. I subconsciously try to make things fuk up sort-of to balance things out. Everything has to be balanced. This i know. What goes around comes around. This i know. Happiness is within you. This i know
On the way here we went to multinoma and horsetail falls.. :) my absolut favorite place in the world. Epic beauty and intensity. I love epic. Epic should be my second middle name
Were almost home to the tri-cities..listening to hot rod circuit.. Trying not to cry because my dream is over and i am so sad. I don't know what to plan or think at all. Let alone my emotions are fuking haywire. I fuking love him so much i just want to be together.. When we first met i felt like i could finally let that tense breath of air out.. That everything would be okay as long as i could feel his energy blending with mine. so warm together so happy and free.. Almost too perfect if that makes sense? I think when that happens.. too much of a good thing.. I subconsciously try to make things fuk up sort-of to balance things out. Everything has to be balanced. This i know. What goes around comes around. This i know. Happiness is within you. This i know
On the way here we went to multinoma and horsetail falls.. :) my absolut favorite place in the world. Epic beauty and intensity. I love epic. Epic should be my second middle name
Thursday, March 4, 2010
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